All Dressed Up and No Where To Go

Better in Time

2008-11-18T09:34:00.000-08:00

Better in Time - Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the past
I believe it
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Holdin On

2008-11-18T09:00:00.000-08:00

Broken - Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

Always on Your Side

2008-11-18T08:49:00.000-08:00

Always On Your Side - Sheryl Crow

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

How to let go of some one you deeply love

2008-11-16T08:10:00.000-08:00

Realize that you still love this person. If it feels as if you can't let go, it's for a reason. Forgetting this person may be very hard to nearly impossible, but that doesn't mean that you can't move on in life.
Understand that there are other people out there, you just can't see them. You obviously have been in love with this person so much or so long that it has gotten you to the point where there's no other person in the world but them. Moving on is the hardest part and it can take a long time, but go out with friends and have a good time, because life is too short to live it down in the dumps.
Never love anyone more than they love you. This one may be hard because most chances are that the person doesn't know how deeply in love you are with them. Pretend you are in their position and realize how they feel... this should affect you because you would know what they're feeling about you.
Talk to someone. It's always good to get out your feelings with someone comfortably. Talk to someone close to you or if you have to, go see a therapist. Letting go of your emotions and thoughts with someone can be a natural healer. Know that you don't always have to cry it out. (Even though sometimes you have to).
Decide if you want to remain friends. If you are staying with them in the hopes that they may love you again, then don't. This could restrict you in life and cause you even more pain. Listen to your own heart.

Source: Wikihow.com

Do I need fixing?

2007-03-28T00:10:00.000-07:00

Fix You Lyrics - Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you,

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

When tears streak down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace.
When tears streak down your face and I
When tears streak down you face upon when i see you for my mistakes.
when tears streak down you face and i.

lights will guide you home and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you.

I haven't broke up with my bf or anything. But I just found the song totally haunting enough to actually search up the lyrics. And I'm sure the lyrics apply to many people out there going through hard times especially over a relationship or with loved ones. And disturbingly enough, I really felt that I could relate to the lyrics at times.

Let's talk about dresses!

2007-01-12T18:47:00.000-08:00

I guess I should have explained in the begining why I've titled this blog in such a manner. To be honest, I had initiated this blog on a whim, without so much of a thought.

I couldn't think of anything witty or smart to say. And I most certainly didn't want to appear pretentiously smart or maybe even alarming stupid with some fancy thesaurus conjured up name that seems to manifest characteristics of your average emo angst blogger.

So why this title you ask? I am without a doubt a self-confessed moderate (yes, moderate. I've seen worse) shoppaholic, which basically kind of explains the bit about dresses.

I love dresses the way your average Brit loves his pint of lager! I come home with the perfect dress everytime, try it on with matching shoes and accessories and then find that there is no where remote I could wear it too. Hint hint to the boyfriend who hardly takes me out anywhere...hehe! Hence...*DRUM ROLLS* the said title!!!!!

But I shall also explain the deeper meaning of it, if you can bear with me. In life, we are always waiting for things to happen. Waiting for miracles, the perfect job, the right woman or man, well, you get the gist. But instead of waiting, you should really be taking the initiative to claim what you want and wish for. No point sitting around pretty hoping for magic to happen. One of my favourite quotes.... CARPE DIEM! to seize the day.

So, I hope this blog will serve as a reminder of this in any undertaking that I may pursue. Don't get me wrong, this will also be a platform for me to rant, bitch, moan or even swoon like any other ordinary female. But shall endeavour to keep estrogen levels to a minimal!

Off to watch more movies in a half blind state. (refer to previous entry). Toodle oo!

Gone with the wind....

2007-01-11T12:49:00.000-08:00

Ok. So I was on my way to work this morning. Terrible horrible weather as well. Like little wet tornados coming at you. This is the curse of the British weather I'm afraid.

You know that feeling you get some days, when you know that something bad is going to happen then minute you wake up? Well, I had that feeling. So when i stepped out of my apartment, I made sure I walked further away from the construction sites. God forbid I get hit by a flying crane. Had to stop every few minutes to hold on to something coz the winds were simply frightful! I'm no skinny cow, so you can imagine how strong the winds were, that I had to stop.

Just as I was about to cross the road, this cursed gust of wind came and blew my spectacles right off my face! No warning, nothing. Next minute, I saw my thin frameless wire speckies flying helplessly across the road, smashing into a divider...... and then, being driven over by a car. Even then, I still wanted to find it to try fix it coz I'm as good as half blind without them. Surely some UHU glue or cello tape can't temporarily fix. But no.... another gust of wind carried whatever remnants of my ONLY pair of glasses to some where far far away.

Colleagues were taking the mick out of me! ah well.....

Moral of the story is, NEVER wear a pair of glasses of such design in the midst of crappy brit weather!

Poisonous choices

2007-01-08T17:37:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, I just feel like I've made some terrible choices in regards to many aspects and things in my life. From buying those pair of shoes that i now think are too hideous to wear, to relationships. I've always known myself to be stubborn and head-strong, which has often landed me into alot of trouble.

I have this propensity of digesting things that are usually poisonous for me and then it's too late. Everytime I make a choice, I feel the need to give it a chance and believe in it. But I hate that I am wrong. Part of me wants to believe in it but sometimes, you just can't change some things no matter how much you want or wish for.

I know I don't deserve it and I know I should have better. Maybe moving away will be good for me. So that I may open my eyes and see my worth, that I'm better than what I think of myself, or what everyone else thinks for the matter.

Life goes on......

A new year, a new blog

2007-01-03T14:55:00.000-08:00

You know the feeling of blissfully going through life and then you wake up one day and find out that this seemingly wonderous life is going to end and you're about to be thrown into the deep end of the ocean? I do.

The new year has brought and will bring along many new changes to my life. At the moment, what I truly feel is gut wrenching fear (literally) which has brought about bouts of insomnia, emo-ness, and a really bad stomach! It all happened on the first day of 2007 when I woke up sweating and panicking, feeling scared and very much alone. I hate not knowing whats going to happen. I hate not knowing what I'm gonna have for dinner later at night. Yes, I'm naturally this paranoid. What a start to the new year.

So what better way then to put them all down in words so that someday I can look back and laugh and cry at them? no, not at but with them.

I just want to find peace and strength, bring all the pieces together and remember that girl that I had wanted to be. That my friends is my pursuit of happyness!

What do people say in their first few post anyway apart from ramble on about randomness? I've got all these ideas and things I'd like to say, but it seems a little premature to do it all just about now. Like the title says, all dressed up and no where to go. This almost seems to be the story of my life! Maybe once I've warmed up to this blog, will I reveal more.

So far, so good.