Wednesday, 28 March 2007

Do I need fixing?

Fix You Lyrics - Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you,

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

When tears streak down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace.
When tears streak down your face and I
When tears streak down you face upon when i see you for my mistakes.
when tears streak down you face and i.

lights will guide you home and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you.

I haven't broke up with my bf or anything. But I just found the song totally haunting enough to actually search up the lyrics. And I'm sure the lyrics apply to many people out there going through hard times especially over a relationship or with loved ones. And disturbingly enough, I really felt that I could relate to the lyrics at times.

Friday, 12 January 2007

Let's talk about dresses!

I guess I should have explained in the begining why I've titled this blog in such a manner. To be honest, I had initiated this blog on a whim, without so much of a thought.

I couldn't think of anything witty or smart to say. And I most certainly didn't want to appear pretentiously smart or maybe even alarming stupid with some fancy thesaurus conjured up name that seems to manifest characteristics of your average emo angst blogger.

So why this title you ask? I am without a doubt a self-confessed moderate (yes, moderate. I've seen worse) shoppaholic, which basically kind of explains the bit about dresses.

I love dresses the way your average Brit loves his pint of lager! I come home with the perfect dress everytime, try it on with matching shoes and accessories and then find that there is no where remote I could wear it too. Hint hint to the boyfriend who hardly takes me out anywhere...hehe! Hence...*DRUM ROLLS* the said title!!!!!

But I shall also explain the deeper meaning of it, if you can bear with me. In life, we are always waiting for things to happen. Waiting for miracles, the perfect job, the right woman or man, well, you get the gist. But instead of waiting, you should really be taking the initiative to claim what you want and wish for. No point sitting around pretty hoping for magic to happen. One of my favourite quotes.... CARPE DIEM! to seize the day.

So, I hope this blog will serve as a reminder of this in any undertaking that I may pursue. Don't get me wrong, this will also be a platform for me to rant, bitch, moan or even swoon like any other ordinary female. But shall endeavour to keep estrogen levels to a minimal!

Off to watch more movies in a half blind state. (refer to previous entry). Toodle oo!

Thursday, 11 January 2007

Gone with the wind....

Ok. So I was on my way to work this morning. Terrible horrible weather as well. Like little wet tornados coming at you. This is the curse of the British weather I'm afraid.

You know that feeling you get some days, when you know that something bad is going to happen then minute you wake up? Well, I had that feeling. So when i stepped out of my apartment, I made sure I walked further away from the construction sites. God forbid I get hit by a flying crane. Had to stop every few minutes to hold on to something coz the winds were simply frightful! I'm no skinny cow, so you can imagine how strong the winds were, that I had to stop.

Just as I was about to cross the road, this cursed gust of wind came and blew my spectacles right off my face! No warning, nothing. Next minute, I saw my thin frameless wire speckies flying helplessly across the road, smashing into a divider...... and then, being driven over by a car. Even then, I still wanted to find it to try fix it coz I'm as good as half blind without them. Surely some UHU glue or cello tape can't temporarily fix. But no.... another gust of wind carried whatever remnants of my ONLY pair of glasses to some where far far away.

Colleagues were taking the mick out of me! ah well.....

Moral of the story is, NEVER wear a pair of glasses of such design in the midst of crappy brit weather!

Monday, 8 January 2007

Poisonous choices

Sometimes, I just feel like I've made some terrible choices in regards to many aspects and things in my life. From buying those pair of shoes that i now think are too hideous to wear, to relationships. I've always known myself to be stubborn and head-strong, which has often landed me into alot of trouble.

I have this propensity of digesting things that are usually poisonous for me and then it's too late. Everytime I make a choice, I feel the need to give it a chance and believe in it. But I hate that I am wrong. Part of me wants to believe in it but sometimes, you just can't change some things no matter how much you want or wish for.

I know I don't deserve it and I know I should have better. Maybe moving away will be good for me. So that I may open my eyes and see my worth, that I'm better than what I think of myself, or what everyone else thinks for the matter.

Life goes on......

Wednesday, 3 January 2007

A new year, a new blog

You know the feeling of blissfully going through life and then you wake up one day and find out that this seemingly wonderous life is going to end and you're about to be thrown into the deep end of the ocean? I do.

The new year has brought and will bring along many new changes to my life. At the moment, what I truly feel is gut wrenching fear (literally) which has brought about bouts of insomnia, emo-ness, and a really bad stomach! It all happened on the first day of 2007 when I woke up sweating and panicking, feeling scared and very much alone. I hate not knowing whats going to happen. I hate not knowing what I'm gonna have for dinner later at night. Yes, I'm naturally this paranoid. What a start to the new year.

So what better way then to put them all down in words so that someday I can look back and laugh and cry at them? no, not at but with them.

I just want to find peace and strength, bring all the pieces together and remember that girl that I had wanted to be. That my friends is my pursuit of happyness!

What do people say in their first few post anyway apart from ramble on about randomness? I've got all these ideas and things I'd like to say, but it seems a little premature to do it all just about now. Like the title says, all dressed up and no where to go. This almost seems to be the story of my life! Maybe once I've warmed up to this blog, will I reveal more.

So far, so good.